Chapter 3

I always felt I was going to grow alone. 

Anyway, I guess what I am trying to say here is, I wasn't at that time where I was gearing my life towards creating a family. Yet, here I am, blessed with one. 

Sometimes I wonder, will I 

All I remember was I was praying so hard during one of my bad moments--when I was against a lot of people in whom I considered my friends and somehow family, some personal turned political whatever against me--I was drinking every day with my friends trying to battle my feelings and suck in the betrayals, and I was going home everyday with so much sadness I felt like I did not belong anywhere anymore. I think it was rock bottom. So I convinced myself. 

Im rising up from this. I got money, I got  Wherever life takes me I'm okay. Maybe I don't need to be here. Maybe there's something better out there and somewhere I will have better purpose.

I also agreed to go on a trip with my bestfriends that time and it was also my cousin's birthday in California, I remember going back to Yosemite for the third time. I was still in awe of its beauty. I was thinking myself so many times while I was taking in the scenery,